Back in the days when we were young and stupid, 20 something guys ….
It was just about a few days before I was going to leave my college for the last time. I was just sitting and counting down the days when everything just seemed to swish by in fast forward. Life showed me flashes from my own past, all the things that I wished to treasure and not leave behind. And then the million dollar question popped up – “What is the one thing that I wish the most in my life?” I thought that I’m clueless and probably will be like that for some time to come. But that one time, I guess I was confident that I had no more expectations left in me, or rather didn’t want to have any, or just that I was sure enough that I was unsure about everything. Thought that it might be better if I let there be an element of surprise and a little tinge of hope for a better life.
I recollected and reminisced about all the things that I might have screwed up while saying things that shouldn’t have said at the first place – the most inappropriate ones, something that was totally avoidable. We make these mistakes and regret later, but I guess then sometimes it’s better to make them. It’s something that helps you step forward towards being a better person. We hope that in a moment of clarity, every thing settles down in front of us and we are vindicated with a hope that we have left a desirable impression on others, something we could take forward without any regret.
As I look back, I don’t know whether there’s an end to this or not and as I’m still trying to contemplate one …. Life moves on anyway ….
Friday, April 10, 2009
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
After a long hiatus
Starting something like this (after much inner struggle, convincing yourself that yes, you do have something interesting to offer) seems to be an insurmountable task. I just hope I have the tenacity to keep delivering rubbish.
So yes, where was I? … Yes indeed, so do any of you believe in nihilism, that “life is pointless”. Well if you do then I don’t know whether God should help you out or not, cause I’m still figuring it out whether wailing and sobbing about all the things that I don’t have in my life is gonna do any good to me or not (I know its definitely not, but the point is not that. The point is whether feeling bad about something and getting sombre is absolutely worthless, that whether the act itself should be totally abolished from our lives, considering it as an unnatural form of expression; that it’s detrimental).
I know the above does not sound very inspiring, so lemme get into a whole new different perspective. Considering the fact that everybody has his or her own share of trials and tribulations, consciously trying to make an effort to live life in an interesting sort of manner has healthy outputs. Lets talk about coincidences. There’s really nothing much in your hands to make them happen, but when they do happen, they can have some lovely, memorable and even hilarious effects. Just today as I was standing at the Metro station, planning to meet a very old school buddy after 4 long years, I got to meet another of my very good school friends, again after 4 years (People in question would know that I’m talking about them if they happen to go through this). He coincidently was there at the station too (A whole lot of lovely incidents, and occasionally embarrassing things happen at the subway, but more of that later on).
In fact there’s one more Metro rail incident that I’d like to share. I was sitting on the ladies seat without realising it. A lovely looking young girl, probably of my age, gets up at one of the stations and stands right in front of me. Well I kept on looking in different directions (Probably because you surely can’t directly stare at her, cause that would be gross and inappropriate. Probably it was plain courtesy or just that I was feeling uncomfortable). Anyway, after a few stations went by, she made her move (No, don’t get any ideas) and simply said “Excuse me, but that’s a ladies seat on which you’re sitting”. My immediate reaction was “OK fine, you can have it” and relinquish the seat. But in my mind I was rearing to tell her that she could have been a bit more subtle, without causing much embarrassment which on my part, I had to suffer. The story doesn’t end there. On that very same day, I had saved an unseen episode of “How I Met Your Mother” for late-night viewing. The one in which Barney gets stuck on a subway and can’t give up his seat to anybody, not even a pregnant lady and a handicapped boy because both his legs get numb after running and winning the New York marathon (Regular viewers of this show would know which episode I’m talking about). That was such a stark hilarious coincidence, to which I couldn’t help but laugh out loud after watching that episode. I was surprised as if my little incident was waiting to happen before I go and see that episode. I actually thanked that girl in my mind for causing that embarrassment, cause otherwise I wouldn’t have had that chance to laugh my heart out and live to tell you this tale.
So there you see, the beauty of coincidences. There’s much more life has to offer, if we just search for it with the right temperament.
So yes, where was I? … Yes indeed, so do any of you believe in nihilism, that “life is pointless”. Well if you do then I don’t know whether God should help you out or not, cause I’m still figuring it out whether wailing and sobbing about all the things that I don’t have in my life is gonna do any good to me or not (I know its definitely not, but the point is not that. The point is whether feeling bad about something and getting sombre is absolutely worthless, that whether the act itself should be totally abolished from our lives, considering it as an unnatural form of expression; that it’s detrimental).
I know the above does not sound very inspiring, so lemme get into a whole new different perspective. Considering the fact that everybody has his or her own share of trials and tribulations, consciously trying to make an effort to live life in an interesting sort of manner has healthy outputs. Lets talk about coincidences. There’s really nothing much in your hands to make them happen, but when they do happen, they can have some lovely, memorable and even hilarious effects. Just today as I was standing at the Metro station, planning to meet a very old school buddy after 4 long years, I got to meet another of my very good school friends, again after 4 years (People in question would know that I’m talking about them if they happen to go through this). He coincidently was there at the station too (A whole lot of lovely incidents, and occasionally embarrassing things happen at the subway, but more of that later on).
In fact there’s one more Metro rail incident that I’d like to share. I was sitting on the ladies seat without realising it. A lovely looking young girl, probably of my age, gets up at one of the stations and stands right in front of me. Well I kept on looking in different directions (Probably because you surely can’t directly stare at her, cause that would be gross and inappropriate. Probably it was plain courtesy or just that I was feeling uncomfortable). Anyway, after a few stations went by, she made her move (No, don’t get any ideas) and simply said “Excuse me, but that’s a ladies seat on which you’re sitting”. My immediate reaction was “OK fine, you can have it” and relinquish the seat. But in my mind I was rearing to tell her that she could have been a bit more subtle, without causing much embarrassment which on my part, I had to suffer. The story doesn’t end there. On that very same day, I had saved an unseen episode of “How I Met Your Mother” for late-night viewing. The one in which Barney gets stuck on a subway and can’t give up his seat to anybody, not even a pregnant lady and a handicapped boy because both his legs get numb after running and winning the New York marathon (Regular viewers of this show would know which episode I’m talking about). That was such a stark hilarious coincidence, to which I couldn’t help but laugh out loud after watching that episode. I was surprised as if my little incident was waiting to happen before I go and see that episode. I actually thanked that girl in my mind for causing that embarrassment, cause otherwise I wouldn’t have had that chance to laugh my heart out and live to tell you this tale.
So there you see, the beauty of coincidences. There’s much more life has to offer, if we just search for it with the right temperament.
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